10 Random Happy Childhood Memories

1. Monster, my Grandma's dog. He wakes me up by licking my face or places his mouth near my face panting. He was older than me. It's like I'm around 6 years old and he is already 9.

Just a random dog. His markings are a bit similar to Monster's.

2. A red teddy bear. I can't remember who gave it to me but I really liked that toy. It's a simple stuffed bear with button eyes. It's still there at my grandma's house, alive but in bad condition.

New stuffed cat cuddle and pillow buddy

3. A yellow green headband I finally got to ask my Grandma to buy for me on my birthday. I remember being so happy and thankful for it.

4. Afternoon stroll in the seashore during low tide. Grandma and I would look for shellfish or sea urchins. Right before sunset we would eat dinner by the rocks.

When will I see the beach again?

5. Playing with the ducks and getting chased by the biggest one.

6. Getting water from the well just beside the house.

Atis reminds me so much of childhood memories too.

7. Riding mountain bike around the neighborhood.

8. Playing with the mini clay cooking set with real fire, cooking with just about any plants around.

I miss cooking. Yup, including beef curry.

9. Picnic at the the front yard with my younger brother when parents are not around.

10. The first cat Mickey and the rest of the cats that followed. Such fun memories playing with them and chasing them around. I had early symptoms of chicken pox and my father without knowing, accused the cats to have given me allergies because I would let them sleep beside me in bed.

Bruce, a random and resident resort cat .

So many "feels" and thoughts going around my mind today. Instead of going over what those are, it would be better to think of the good times of the past. Time flies. Oh well, that just made me sad again. I think I will be forever like this. "Feeling depressed". Unless everything will be put to an end. No, not giving up yet. Still holding on though. Trying my best to hold on a little longer...

Happy thoughts...

Happy thoughts...

Happy thoughts... 

Darkness Before the Dawn

Cluttered thoughts from a tired mind.

Getting temporary relief after a deep sigh.

Fighting, clinging, looking for more strength.

Questions from within never seem to end.

Been to much worse than this.

Yet I still couldn't find my peace.

Numb and blind not knowing what will happen next.

A little flicker of light is the only hope of this pessimist.

The Feline in Me, The Feline and Me

Who am I you may ask? Sounds like it's a cat's blog right. Well I'd like to be a cat. Who doesn't want belly rubs, sleeping all day, and tuna treats right? I also like cats, a lot. The first pet I was with was a dog and I love dogs but I've always been more fascinated with cats. I enjoy a cat's company a lot, even more than that of human. (crazy cat lady alert! Introvert warning!) My family have had cats since I was young, I haven't had one cat that I can call mine but I've always treated them as mine.

That's Mikoy by the way. I lived with him for a year until my family went back south while I had to stay in the city. I can't take him with me so I just see him occasionally since then.

Oh yeah, so about this blog. Initially, I'd like it to be about my connection with cats. My love for cats. My days with them and without them. What I see in them. My dreams with them and for them. It's weird because I don't even have cats at the moment. So it may also have something or more about me (honestly-just me), well see.

Felinethrophy = an act of kindness from one cat to another.

I saw that from notcatcrazylady.com site. I actually made this blog name years ago but just never started posting entries on it, with cat stuff in mind.  Here I am now a few years later finally trying to work on it. Something I'd like to do not really for the concern of others (philanthropy), lots of Feline photos for sure, and something I can look back to, I'd consider as reward to myself (trophy of sorts). Thus coining the word I named this blog. It may sound nice but the alternate name for this blog is - "Saving My Sanity".

For the longest time I finally started expressing myself again through writing.  This is the start. There so much more to say. This is me for me. One day at a time. That may sound selfish but who else would you turn to when there is literally no one who can help you? A famous saying even says "Don't wait for someone to bring you flowers, plant your own garden." One has to make ways to channel all that negative energies out right? And note and highlight the good things, remind myself that everything will be alright.

Good job self! You did your first post... Good luck.

Felinethrophy: An act of kindness from one cat to another. - See more at: http://www.notcrazycatlady.com/the-worlds-best-cat-dictionary.html#sthash.6rj2hpfy.dpuf

Felinethrophy: An act of kindness from one cat to another. - See more at: http://www.notcrazycatlady.com/the-worlds-best-cat-dictionary.html#sthash.6rj2hpfy.dpuf

Felinethrophy: An act of kindness from one cat to another. - See more at: http://www.notcrazycatlady.com/the-worlds-best-cat-dictionary.html#sthash.6rj2hpfy.dpuf